What to write?

Haven't written in a while. For the most part was busy with work and the rest of the time just wasn't up to it. With everything going on around us, there has been barely enough time to comprehend it.....let alone analyze and then write about it.


The streak of mass suicides that have been occurring lately in the city have left all of us shell-shocked. The mind is numb and not a single word forms. Perhaps Mehr Bukhari said it best, "Are these suicides or in fact homicides??" Whatever the answer may be, is chilling nevertheless.


The last several days have also been spent analyzing adversity. I've been thinking about hardships. We all face it. Some more than others. And our hardships have their own different characteristics and features. At times when there seems to be no end to it, you're left wondering why it had to happen? Why this difficulty now? Why me? When will it end? How much longer?


But, when you begin to look around, you realize that everyone is going through some kind of adversity and tough time. So, this is what they call life. No doubt, it's a dog's world out there. No mercy, no sympathy, no empathy, no respite. Everyone out for themselves. But, the thing that is happening to all of us at the same time is, some kind of hardship.


Eventually it turns into a feat of keeping your head above the water. Either you let the adversity ride you or you ride out the adversity. It's a tough thing to tackle. So far, I've figured out that you just have to make it. Somehow....in some way or form.....you can't let it get the best of you. And undoubtedly, there are so many times when you want to scream...and you do! When you cry, yell, get frustrated, irritated, angry, pessimistic, depressed. Times when you begin to feel you're a failure. All this comes crashing down on you. But, in the end, no matter what you feel.....in the end the adversity remains there staring back at you.


After wondering about my own adversity that I'm faced it, I'm beginning to realize that perhaps it shouldn't be considered as something that is happening to you or against you, but rather it's happening for a reason and you must overcome it at all costs. The key is to survive. And when survival is the issue, then you must ensure that you survive in the end!


I'm not sure how well I'm tackling the challenges I'm faced with. I can say definitively that there have been plenty of times when I broke down and gave up. But, then you wake up in the morning and think that if I'm getting another day, then I better give it my best shot and see if I can make it this time. And day by day you keep trying and keep giving it your best shot. You face it no matter what. Adversity can be ugly and ruthless....it spits on you and hits you hard. But with each blow, you have to remain standing and fight back. I don't know if I'll make it. Some days I feel I have overcome some parts of my challenges, but then there are days when I feel I'm back at square one. But, one thing is for sure, every day I try to give it my best, because no matter what, I have to make it! Eventually the clouds will part.